Photos and Video

Here's the link to the photobucket album of our 3 weeks together: Here

Here's a video of me recording Daithi while waiting for the 4D show to start at the Vancouver Aquarium: Here

Here's a video of me recording Daithi for fun while waiting for the International Club to leave for dinner (July 30th at the Japanese Festival): Here

Here's a video of us... well, kissing (same time as the previous video): Here

EDIT: Links are dead, and we had no backups.... Thanks FBI...

After the Three Weeks

Well, it's August 1st. A day after Daithi has left Canada. It's been a fun ride, I got to say. Things don't happen as planned, like always. Not like that is a bad thing. Just being with him was so natural. It's just amazing. It feels like we have been together for a long time (a year) even though we were actually together for 3 weeks.

Of course, when the 31st came closer and closer, we get upset that he will be leaving. During our all-nighter on the 31st, I cried a lot. Just knowing that it will be at least a year before we can be together again is just so sad. No more hugging, kissing, feeling his face, smelling his smell, playing games together, waking up in the morning together (him waking me up), brushing our teeth, eating meals together, etc. We have to go back to the routine of us talking on Skype, texting (DMing) through Twitter, and not being together. It IS a long-distance relationship, after all. We agreed to be like this. Meeting up was a treat. Hopefully, we will be together permanently soon.

When I woke up (I slept when I got home from the airport), my brother comforted me saying that is it better to not have met him at all and be free from the pain or have met him and have this pain. Of course, I said that it is better to have met him and have this pain. Daithi has impacted my life so much, and I love him so much. How can I wish to not have met him, either in person or just online.

And yes, I didn't update everyday. How can I take time out of my schedule to update with Daithi with me. I just hope I don't forget these 3 weeks. I do have photos, receipts, and other souvenirs to remember these 3 weeks by.

I don't know when I will recover from my withdrawal of having Daithi with me at my house for 3 weeks, but I do hope I recover soon. I have things to do now like finding a job to save up money for a ticket to Ireland. :)

*sighs*

For my parents, they weren't too friendly with him when he was over. I wish they try to communicate with each other. Though, I don't want to push things, especially on Daithi's side. *sighs* Mom said to me today that it's like she lost a child and that it would have been better if he was Chinese. I can't believe she said that! That's so racist! She even told my brother to find a Chinese girlfriend. Grr. Though, there was something she said that kind of hurt me. She said that if Daithi's condition is going to affect the rest of this life, my life would be more complicated by it and that I should find someone else. Because of this condition, I would need to pay for the medicine and take care of him, on top of taking care of my life. I didn't really know how to reply to her. I just said that I love him. Even if life gets difficult, I will stay by his side.

However, just today, after Daithi injected himself, he got violently ill, muscles tensed... I was so worried and felt just useless since I was so far away from him. Thankfully, he's okay. He has family to take care of him. The thing is, he said that he would understand if I left him if it gets too unbearable. What can I say? I love him... Even if he is unable to walk or sick in the hospital, I will stay by his side, even if it's painful for me to say him like that. Wouldn't it be more painful for him? If I left him, that would be totally unbearably painful. When you're sick, you need someone's care and love to pull through, right?

I didn't tell Daithi any of this. I couldn't say he was in pain earlier and we are just overcoming the fact that we aren't together physically.

These next few days will be tough. Daithi is busy because he is in London. Plus, his 18th b-day is coming up. I guess I will have to be strong by myself. I do have my brother to comfort me, even if my parents don't agree with me having Daithi as my boyfriend.

Well, I got to go finish uploading the photos. Bye~

After Playland

On July 18th, we went to Playland together. But before that, I had trouble getting up so early at 8:30am because we slept at 2am last night. After breakfast (tea, toast with margarine, cereal with milk), we checked the bus route, and left. I didn't bring much with me because I was scared to lose things when we leave them off the side when we go on the rides. But in the end, we went back because I forgot to get something and forgot the bus route. Still, once we got on the bus, I forgot the bus route again.

Anyway, we managed to get to Playland at 10:30am, 30 minutes after it opened.

We went to the washrooms first, and bought a Hellavator cup that can be refilled for the whole day. Then we went on the Wooden Roller Coaster. The whole day, I went on most of the rides that we didn't need to play except a few of them because we didn't like them. Though the new ride (the Atmosfear) was amazing. It was so high, so fast, and so windy. The line up was long, though. But since it was so good, we went on it twice.

We went into the souvenir shop for a bit, but didn't bought anything. But Daithi managed to get a Super Golden Mushroom (Mario) from the machines that give out toys.

We also had lunch at the Pizza Pizza place and ate fries and chicken. We spent a lot of time at the arcade and won a couple of prizes. Also, the second arcade, we won two toy dinosaurs. lol I got an orange anklosaurus and he got a blue stegosaurus.

The day at Playland ended with the Wave Swinger. We left and went on the bus (though we saw some soccer (maybe?) fans going to a match of some sort. We passed by Wendy's and decided to stop there for dinner on a whim. We got home (but ate some Oreo parfait together while waiting for the bus).

Once we got home, we played AAI and watched two episodes of Kanon (the anime we are currently watching). I don't remember much else. I know I was so sleepy at the end of the day that I slept without even changing properly or even brushing my teeth.

Oh, I think I had a phone call from my friend from the International Club (Daphne). She asked about how I was doing and what we so far.

Well, that was yesterday. Today, we are going to have a picnic in Central Park. Apparently, my parents are on vacation now. Well, I got to go now. Daithi is staring at me and kissing me. *blush*

Too busy, too tired to post

We haven't been updating as much as we wanted to. I get too tired at the end of the day to post.

Anyway, I'll just make a quick update about today (Sunday, July 17):

• had a hard time getting out of bed, Daithi tried to woke me up
• had breakfast (tea and cereal with milk, toast with margarine)
• use our laptops to check where to eat for lunch
• went to Tim Hortons (got 2 combos)
• went to Science World
• went to Safeway (used up all Stouffers' coupons)
• went home and ate dinner
• went to Summer Night Market in Richmond, had noms (fish waffles and tornado potato fries), bought folder and toothbrush holders)
• waited for bus for a long time but found out that the bus we needed to take stopped running long ago (past midnight)
• called mom, she picked us up
• massaged each other's feet (sore-ness), made Daithi hot chocolate
• sleep soon

Tomorrow, we are going to Playland. Can't wait. It's so late now. I wonder if we will wake up on time to get to Playland when it first opens. :)

In 3 days, so many things happened

I know I completely stopped making posts for each day of the 3 weeks Daithi is staying here at my house here in Canada. When the day come close to the end, I get tired or we get busy. Like last night, the 13th, our 1 year anniversary, I was so tired that I fell asleep without changing or anything. I woke up at 5:30am to fix that.

Anyway, I will be editing this post with the three days.

July 13th, 2011

I woke up to the sound of the living room TV. It was so loud so I yelled at my brother for the TV waking me up. I went back to bed. When I woke up again, Daithi was crawling into my bed. He didn't know I was awake, so he tried to wake me up without shaking me or anything. I kept on pretending to be asleep to see what he will do. It's so wonderful to be waken by your boyfriend next to me. <3 Hugs, kisses, squeezes, touches on my face... *happy sigh*

After all that, he said that I must be a heavy sleeper, so I replied that I was not. We then got sweet and intimate. It was our 1 year anniversary. After that, I took a shower with him outside the shower door. It is amazing how we are so close and not awkward at all, even if we are intimate or being just plain silly.

For breakfast, we didn't have much milk left to have cereal and hot chocolate so we had tea (the normal kind he bought from Ireland), eggs (Daithi's type of eggs made in the microwave), ham (for me only) and toast. It's just so nice to be able to have this kind of relaxed morning with the one I love.

He then took a shower while I brushed my teeth and stuff. We got ready for our day together. Remember, we had a reservation that he made to Seasons in the Park at Queen Elizabeth Park for 6pm for 2. I had to check the time for Kung Fu Panda 2 showings at Silvercity Metropolis. We had time to spare since the movie was at 2:50pm. We dressed up a bit, me wearing the clothes that I bought with Susy when we went to buy clothes for the 3 weeks in July at Metrotown. Though, I needed a scarf to hide my bra straps because there is a dress code at the high class restaurant (business casual). We then left and went to Metrotown.

There, we went to the dollar store, bought 2 scarves (one to finish my outfit and an orange one), Twizzlers, and Canada Dry for him since he gets thirsty so easily. Who would have thought our day together (our first real date) was us going to the dollar store. It was so sweet of him, though. Picking out and putting on me the scarves. <3

After that we walked around the mall. We went into the Piggy Bank place and went a little crazy over the anime merchandise, we decided to come back later after getting our movie tickets (I had free movie tickets - two from my 19th b-day, two from winning in a prize draw). After getting the tickets (Daithi paid $6 for the extra 3D free), we went back toe the Piggy Bank Place, he bought me an Ouran High School Host Club (light orange colour) wallet and he got a Death Note (black colour) wallet. Anime merchandise was probably imported over so it was expensive (around $20).

Other places we went to are a manga/anime store (first time ever for me), Starbucks (to get hot chocolate and a white chocolate cookie with nuts), and Toys R Us. Isn't it weird how all we do in the mall is not like how other couples? I didn't even drag my boyfriend to any clothes store. XD

We went the washroom, then had to quickly get to the movie. We bought a large bag of popcorn and a large Sprite. Sat down together in the somewhat empty theatre just in time to see the opening of the movie. It was definitely a great movie. Of course, we miss some stuff because we kissed a few times during it. Hehe.

Also, since we walked a lot and I had new shoes, my feet got really tired/sore. Also, I was wearing a dress and short sleeves. I got cold easily. The whole day, I had to hug/hold him or he gave me his shirt. The one time I didn't bring extra clothes had to be that day.

After that, we went straight to the park. Of course, we went the wrong way when we were walking to Seasons of the Park. You know, it just feels so comfortable just walking and talking together while holding hands. We were early to the restaurant, so we sat on a bench and just talked. One year... wow.

Going into the restaurant, we got a table for 2 (I got Daithi to be a gentleman and pull my seat out for me and I sat down, hehe). The view outside the window was amazing. The view of Vancouver... It took us some time to order and the waitress, Nicole, was very nice and she asked if there was any special occasion. We told her it was our one year anniversary. Throughout the meal, Daithi taught me some manners since we are at a high-class restaurant and it was my first time at one.

Of course, we were lovey-dovey at the restaurant. I was also a bit silly. :P I got full easily because I did have lots of popcorn at the theatre. Anyway, the meal was really good. Yum. Since I was full, we didn't order any dessert, but to our surprise, Nicole brought out a lemon cake for us for free for our anniversary. That was so nice of the restaurant to do that.

After our dinner, we went outside and took some pictures of the scenery, sat down on a bench near the water fountain, and then went home. It was really cold for me and it was drizzling a bit. When we got home, mom told me to hang the wet clothes from the washing machine. Daithi and I did. It was all my boyfriend's clothes. It was a surprise that my mom asked me to do it.

Back in my room, we kind of put our money in our new wallets and unpacked the things of the day. After a while, I just fell asleep after we said our quick goodnights. We didn't even do his injections. Ahh, I wish I wasn't so tired... And now it's early in the morning. I need more sleep... Ugh. I'll just crawl into Daithi's bed now. :)

Next, I will type up July 11th and 12th.

July 10th finally arrived!

Gosh, I can't believe it came and almost went! You know how long I waited for this day to come? Do you? One year! ONE YEAR!!! One year of talking on Skype.

Anyway, I will tell you what happened:

I woke up (well, duh), though I didn't really have a goodnight's sleep. My stomach felt queasy because I had dinner late and not much dinner at that. Sleeping on a full stomach wasn't good at all. So I had to go to the washroom multiple times. Still, I slept later than usual because of that, and my brother woke me up at 8:30am.

Daithi's flight arrives at 11:15am from London Gatwick on flight TCX914. I did have time to spare, so I used that time to eat breakfast, watch videos and read more of my manga. That whole morning, I was freaking out because today is the day! It was so hard to believe it! Still, I'm having trouble believing it and it's almost been 12 hours since we met in person.

Anyway, I took off to the bus stop, got on the bus, rode it (was worried that I missed my stop, but didn't), I also texted to my Twitter about what I am doing and how I am feeling, got off at the Langara-49th skytrain station, got on the skytrain that takes me to YVR Airport. That was my first time going to the airport on skytrain. I stared out the window and thought to myself. Trying to think as much as I can. I knew that after we met, things will never be the same again. I also thought of past scenarios of our first meeting, but they were all fuzzy in my head.

Getting off at the last stop, I followed the signs towards the International/USA departure. But then after looking at them again, I wondered where were the arrivals. I asked an airport worker where it was, and he led me near there. Since I was early, I explored the airport a bit. The last time I was there was when I saw my mom off when she went to China when I was in grade 9.

After looking around, I went down the escalator to the International arrivals. I saw the screen of all the arrival flights that are near the current time and saw one coming from London. I thought to myself that it was maybe that one, but it the time it arrives is later than 11:15am. I looked at the previous screen and saw one from London Gatwick arriving early at 11am. It will be early! I checked my cell and saw the time was 10:50am. Ten more minutes. So I just stood there, staring up at the screen and waited. There were multiple screens and two of them are video cam feeds of the people leaving the security place. For over an hour, I waited for him. I got a few phone calls from my friends from the International Club, wondering how I was doing. I also got a text from Daithi saying that he arrived at airport 4/4.

Since I stood there for over an hour, my legs were getting tired. I saw many people arrive at the Greeting area and many people waiting for them. I got really nervous waiting. Anyone one the screen could be him, but since Daithi showed me what he is wearing and will be wearing when he arrives, it was easier to spot him. I didn't know customs/security took so long! But it was "rush hour".

When I saw him on the screen, I was like "OMG! There he is!" or something like that. I ran to the other end of the line where people arrive. He was walking really slowly. That got me a little more nervous. Heh. When he finally saw me, he ran to me and we hugged for like 5 minutes. Apparently, I was the one who didn't let go and he tried twice. ^_^; It felt really amazing. So many things went through my mind at once. Feelings, too. Maybe I got a tiny bit teary-eyed, too. I think.

After that, we kind of stumbled on our words, or maybe it was just me. We wondered what to do next. I didn't know where to go and I was just overwhelmed by the fact that he is right there, finally, with me. We wandered around the airport for a bit. I remember me saying that we planned to have a drink, and now we are at a lost. It was lunch time, but he was thirsty. I was pulling his smaller luggage, while he pulled his larger one. We sat down for a bit while I took out the map of the airport I got earlier while I was exploring. It was difficult to decide, and I had trouble thinking straight. In the end, we had Burger King, ordering the Original Chicken Sandwich combos. We had the same thing, except I had rootbeer, of course.

I ordered, he paid. We went upstairs to eat. The rest of the food court was full. It took us a while to start eating, because we forgot napkins that in the end, he got. I was a bit stubborn about it because I didn't want to to leave him. We talked about our feelings of the current moment. It just felt so unreal. Anyway, I ate slowly, and he helped me eat the rest of my fries. I wasn't that hungry, since I was sick last night.

Afterwards, we looked at a bookstore to maybe get something for my brother as a gift, since he had something for me (photo album for our time together and a picture frame) and my parents (money). In the end, we couldn't find anything because I don't know what my brother likes to read. We ended up just hugging each other at the store.

We left the airport (the whole time after we saw each other until we got home, we held hands). I commented how the meeting and the aftermath was completely different than what I had thought. We were hugging so much, and holding each other's hand all the time. I wasn't as shy as I thought I be. Or excited. I was actually pretty calm. He was so loving like always. Why did I thought it would be different for him?

We did missed our stop because we took too long to get off, because of the luggage. In the end, we ended up at Killarney Street in front of my high school. We walked home from there, seeing a garage sale along the way and stopping to check it out. Oh yeah, I also needed to go to the washroom, and I held it in for so long!

Anyway, at home, I introduced him to my brother and vice versa. Went to the washroom, showed him my brother's room where he would be sleeping, unpacked and stuff.

Next we played Mario Kart Double Dash!! with my brother. But after four races, we stopped and my brother went back to his room while we just cuddled and talked. After that, we went to my room and I showed him some Vancouver travel guides. My mom came home and I introduced her to Daithi. After that, my mom called me to help my brother with the new air bed, but since we don't have an electric pump, Felix and mom went to return it.

During that time, Daithi and I were in my room. Lots of hugging and cuddling. I did say that I wasn't ready for the first kiss, but I gave in. That first kiss lasted not long enough for me to fully enjoy it and remember it, so I went for a second and a third one. Yeah... I felt the kisses throughout my body and it just felt right. Most of the things we did today just felt right and felt good.

Anyway, let's just say that Daithi and I went farther than we expected on the first day. I thought we wouldn't even have the first kiss at all on the first day, but things are never as we expected.

For some reason, we had a lot of privacy and my family always knocked on the door to my room. I thought they would be more strict. It was a Sunday, after all. Family is home.

Gosh, we stayed up until after 2am. I guess it was my fault. Daithi is in bed after I tucked him in. :)

I could have been more detailed about the last half of the day, but I already wrote a lot. Tomorrow, we will go grocery shopping and stuff. :) Monday, here we come!

One more day left...

It's 11:54pm, the time I'm typing this. In about 6 minutes, it will be July 10th. It will be exactly one year since Daithi and I started talking on Skype and the day we will finally meet in person for the first time ever.

When I woke up this afternoon (yes, afternoon), the fact that "tomorrow is when I will meet him" hit me surprisingly. I was so in shock and in a daze... I did wonder if I was dreaming or something. I never thought this day would come, you know? It's always been a distant dream. And now the day is coming... I can't believe it's almost been a year since we became boyfriend and girlfriend, too. So much has happened. It feels like I've known him for a long time, but at the same time, the time we've spent together seems short. I am not the only one who thinks that, too. He does, too.

In about 12 hours, I will be with him at the airport. Daphane, a friend from the International Club at uni, asked if she should come just to be safe. Of course, I said it will be fine if he and I were to meet up alone at the airport. I trust him, after all. Plus, I just want it to be special moment for us.

Ah, it just turned midnight. July 10th... thinking back on that faithful day... we had a lot of fun chatting. Ah...

I'm getting sleepy, even though I had Soda Ginembre (Canada Dry) and that I've slept so late these past week. *yawns*

Maybe I just tired myself out from freaking out so much today. I wonder what will happen these next 3 weeks? Well, I'll just have to enjoy spending time with him as much as I can and have no regrets! I can't wait until we see each other! It's gonna be amazing. So many different feelings all at once, I bet. :P Love is a mysterious thing, isn't it? Well, I'm going back to read my shoujo manga. I wonder if the two main characters will finally become an official couple? They love each other, and they both know it? Why do they have to be so stubborn! Ah, never time. Time to go. I'll go to sleep soon. Maybe some last minute cleaning up? I cleaned up a lot already today... So tired... *yawns* I'll write tomorrow about what happened on July 10th later. :)

3 days to go!

Well, I certainly failed to update on this blog... like, at all... anyhoo, it's only 3 days now until we actually meet and can be together. I can't say I'm not nervous, but more than anything I'm excited. I can't wait to see Alice at the airport and give her a BIIIIIIIIIG hug :3 Just to be able to hold her in my arms would mean the world to me, and I'm finally going to get that chance... in three days no less... :o

Anyway, the thing that's most on my mind right now is actually just spending time at the airport with her, grabbing a drink and sitting together, talking to her about my trip, maybe even getting to hold her hand *blush* :P So yeah,  just less than three days and we can do that :D

8 more days, gah!

I can't believe it! There's only 8 more days until July 10th! I thought July seemed so far away before, but now it's already here! Of course, I'm getting more nervous as the time draws near.

Lots of preparations needed to be done. Gotta clean up the house soon. Gotta buy things. Gotta prepare myself, emotionally and physically. I need to sleep earlier and wake up earlier or I will miss Daithi's plane. >.>

I'm worried if things go badly. But that's okay. Worrying won't solve anything, so I'm just gonna prepare myself as much as I can and see what happens.

Is Daithi worried, too? Yeah, but I think he's okay now. Sure, he is not posting anything, so I have to post for the both of us.

20 more days.

Just today, it just hit me how close July 10th is. I'm getting very nervous! Just yesterday, we were saying it's just 3 weeks away, but just saying it's 20 more days away, it seems so much more closer. Why is that? It's only a day in difference and it's a different way to say it.

I'm so nervous I don't know what to do with myself. Daithi said that I should just be myself. I'm just worried I won't be able to be myself when he arrives. I probably will be so fidgety and looking down at the floor a lot.

Daithi said that I shouldn't plan anything and let things go by themselves. I can't help but try do as many things as we can because I don't know when we will see each in person again. I want to make the most of the visit, you know? He says that there will be other opportunities in the future, but we can't say for sure that is the case.

Ah... what to do? I failed at making a knitted hat. I wonder if I should try again?

It's getting hotter now. I wonder if it will be hotter 20 days from now?

23 more days

I can't believe that July 10th is this close now. I remembered when it was just 50, 100 even 365 days. I'm still really excited... and nervous. I want to start seriously planning the 3 weeks when we are together.

You know, I'm worried that I won't be able to act like myself when he's around. I may get so nervous that I can't even look at him. Even when I talk to him on webcam, it is embarrassing for me. I am a shy person, after all.

Lately, I've been waking up really late. My body just won't wake up early anymore even if I sleep earlier. I got to fix that before July. I need to be able to get to the airport before 11:15am, that is when his plane arrives. Huh... I should start getting ready for his arrival. Buy some things or clean up the house. Maybe make plans and call friends. But still... 23 days is still far away.

I really don't know what I'm doing this summer with my life. No work, no school. I feel so unaccomplished. I was suppose to learn to drive this summer, too, but I haven't looked at the manual, yet. Even LPing seems to be in a slump. I have no motivation to do anything, except watch videos and knitting. I should start learning how to knit a hat, you know, so I can make one for my boyfriend, but I need to get his measurements. So I'll get them when he comes over.

*sighs* What am I doing with my life, anyway?

Family Problems

For so long, ever since I was a kid, I never thought my family had any problems (I'm just talking about the four of us: mom, dad, Felix, and me). Who would have thought NOW would be the time to find out that I was wrong. (Now as in when I am 19)

*sighs*

My family just don't spend quality time together. We rarely go out together, but then again, I guess it's my fault for always staying at home. I can't help it, the internet! THE INTERNET! Well, that was before my sweetie came into my life. Now I stay home because of him. If we actually go on planned trips, I would definitely go. I don't like it when things just come up and I have to do something while I am already doing something else. I guess I don't like my "schedule" being interrupted. I guess maybe I shouldn't say that I am flexible with my schedule when finding a job. >.>

Not only us not spending time together, I feel that my parents don't understand me at all and they criticize me way too much. Whenever I do something, they have to say that I'm doing it wrong or that I do it way too much. >.> Like when I'm just making instant noodles, my dad gets mad at me for not boiling the noodles first, getting rid of the water and using new boiled water to put into the noodles. Why so picky, anyway? And why do they need to tell me all the time that I'm short and fat. Why do my dad always say that I all I can do is talk, talk, talk. That's not true. I can do a lot of things like many people in the world can. What does he want me to do? Instead of talk, should I kill? Huh? HUH?

Sorry, I got to calm down.

What's wrong with me talking to my boyfriend? Isn't communication important in a relationship? (Not that my family has any of that) My parents don't talk enough, in my opinion. They seem more like people who just live together, not a married couple. Well, the whole family seems like we are all living together with no connection to one another. Oh, except my brother and I. We are very close. Though, we keep to ourselves when necessary.

Yeah, I wanted to get a consellor so I went with Lyndon, the International Club president, and Michelle, who is a UBC student who helped out at the club booth during this summer semester's clubs day. Michelle gave me advice for my problem, among other things I rather keep secret from here. When I got home, I did ask my mom how her day was. She was so critical about it! Can you believe that? She said to ask my brother since he went with her during Take Your Kids to Work Day. But I said I wanted to hear it from her. She just said the usual, nothing happened. Even if it is boring to her, I may be interested in what she does! I barely know her, you know? She's just like a stranger! I don't even know what foods she likes or what her favourite movie is! And then I brought up the consellor thing saying we have family problems. And she have to say that they don't have problems, I have problems! I mean, seriously! Blaming it all on me, huh? They raised me, you know! They never told me any house rules! There is no curfew, no specific chores I need to do, no sex talk, no drug talk, no nothing ever since I was born! How should I know what I am allow to do and not allow to do!? I wish I have different parents! I never liked my culture. I rather just be Canadian! I don't want anyone to ask me if I'm Chinese! I'm not! I'M NOT!! I'm Canadian and I am proud to be one! I have never been to China, so I'm NOT Chinese. But what I do look like I'm Chinese??? Because BOTH my parents are from there! I hate my culture, I just hate it. If they were born here, things would be different. They wouldn't be so traditional!

Gosh, I just hate my family. Knowing about other families make me so sad. I just want to leave this jail cell of a house. I'm 19, but I am just so inexperience and naive. Finding a job is tough. I don't know much about money. I have to live under this roof! I've got no choice. I can't even run away... I have no one to go to if I do run away... I would be a bother, anyway.

Sure, the family problems is all our fault, but my mom is blaming it all on me.

E3

I know this isn't on topic, as it really has nothing to do with our relationship or anything, but it's on my mind, and I figured if it's on my mind, I should post about it.

The E3 press conferences begin today, and, as usual, I'm finding it hard to contain my excitement. I'm really interested to see how Sony address the whole PSN fiasco, and can't wait to see if they can make the NGP succeed where the PSP failed, and actually deliver a killer lineup of games. I'm already excited for the NGP entry into the Uncharted series, and I can't wait for more games with similar weight behind them to be announced for the system. I also want to see some games that'll actually sell the Move to me. So far, the only game I'm actually excited for that's made specifically for the Move is that Sorcery game they showed at last years E3, and I've heard nothing about it since. It reminds me so much of the old PS2 Harry Potter games that I have such a fond memory of, and I really hope that it'll actually be released. But, other than that, I really hope that some really cool Move games get announced, or at least some really high end titles get announced with Move support as an option. All in all, Sony's press conference should be a solid one though, as there are a lot of PS3 exclusives that they can give more info on.

Microsoft's press conference is a mystery. All that's really known about it is that there'll be more Kinect stuff there, and, well, to be honest, Microsoft haven't really sold me on the Kinect yet. I guess all I can do is reserve judgement for the time being, as really, I have no hopes or expectations from Microsoft at all, so I guess my opinion on their press conference is going to be the most objective one once the day is done.

EA and Ubisoft have their press conferences today aswell, and, to be honest, they don't interest me as much as the big 3's conferences. All I'm looking forward to from EA is more Mass Effect 3 stuff, and all I'm looking forward to from Ubisoft is some more Beyond Good & Evil 2 (Which had better be there this year, or I'll be very very angry)

Then, tomorrow, we have Nintendo's press conference, and really, what can I say that hasn't already been said? They're going to be showing off the Wii's successor (Which I refuse to call 'Project Café' because we all know that that's not what Nintendo have EVER called it) and, we really don't know anything about it. Sure, rumors have been circulating, but I am of the opinion that none of it is true. Nintendo seem to be very very good at keeping these things secret, so I have no idea what to expect. I just really hope that the graphics will be better than anything we've already sen in this generation of consoles. Nintendo have never been known to have the best graphics in any generation, but since this is a new generation of consoles, the standard hasn't been set yet, and I really hope Nintendo set the bar high so the competition will have to work hard to beat them. As for the controller for this new system... I know that Nintendo always know what they're doing in this regard, and I trust them, but I honestly have no idea what they'll come out with. But Nintendo have far more than their new console to show off, they also have 3DS games to announce (That Mario game has really got me curious) and I'm sure they have plenty of stuff to give the Wii and DS one last hoorah. I'm sure I'm not alone when I say that this is certainly my most anticipated press conference of E3.

But E3 doesn't end at the press conferences, and there are a few choice titles that I want to see info on from the floor. The guys at Mojang (They made Minecraft) will be there, and I wonder if a Trailer or something will be released for the full release of the game. I'm really curious to see what Atlus have in store for us too, as I'm highly anticipating Catherine, and I hope that they announce more stuff there too. Level 5 have a couple of games in Japan, or at least announced in Japan, that have yet be announced in English, and the same goes for Capcom (I want AAI2 DAMMIT!). Sega also have a bunch of games to talk about, but, of course, I'm only really interested in Sonic Generations (And any other Sonic-related announcements that come with it). I'm kind of sad that Valve won't be there, but I'm sure they'll come out with something soon... or at least 'soon' in Valve-time.

So yeah, I'm going to be posting on Twitter any opinions I have as things are announced, even though I'm sure none of you really care what I may think about these announcements, but hey, in case there may be a small percentage of you who do care, you can follow me on twitter here.

See ya 'round
-Dáithi

In Reply to my Sweetie

Oh, my sweet Dáithi. I can understand where you are coming from, and I can't blame you for worrying about how I will be towards. Of course, I can't say that I won't behave differently when we are together this July. I can't predict the future. All I can say is "don't worry. I love you with all my heart and nothing is going to change that". If I do behave differently than what you are used to, please tell me. There may be a reason for that, like I may feel so happy inside that I don't know what to do and so I stop acting like myself. Just promise me this: be yourself. Even if you don't think being yourself will help. If you stop being yourself, I will think that the person that I love is gone, and that would make me very upset.

It's true that no one in my life accepts you, yet, but you still have a chance to make an impression. And even if it doesn't go well with my family, you shouldn't lose hope. We will find a way to accept you and maybe one day, accept you into the family. <3

Felix is definitely a nice guy. I see him chatting on MSN or Facebook, listening to his friends' rants and problems. He may not reply much, but he tries to understand people. I don't think Felix is the jealous type at all. I know I get more jealous than him. Can you believe I got jealous of other people when my brother starts clinging to them and not me? I do plan on all 3 of us to play some video games. Just make sure to bring 2 GameCube controllers. Why 2? Just in case a 4th person comes along.

I don't think you sounded like an... um, the a-word, at all. Could you give me an example or two when we talk the next time? I'm very appreciative of all the help and advice I am getting. However, it's still up to us to decide on how our relationship will go. Even if you do say the wrong things at the wrong time, I will tell them that you're not comfortable around lots of people, and they will understand. Of course, not everyone in the world is going to like someone. As long as there is someone out there who does, and YOU have that someone. Me. <3 Even if no one accepts you, just remember that I accept you and I love you.

I hope to read something more lighter the next time you post, okay? Just reading your inner thoughts and feelings is so much different than just talking to you. I like this change. :)

~Alice

Getting Nervous

So, it's coming really close to the time that Alice and I will meet for the first time... and... to be honest I'm starting to worry a little. I'm worried that Alice won't look at me the same way as she does when we speak on webcam. I'm worried that she won't speak to me the same way she does every day on Skype. I'm worried that my strange antics will be less charming and more off-putting to her. But, at the end of the day I love her, and I guess all I can do is love her and be myself.

Even if she accepts me though, there are still a lot of other things that are troubling my mind at the moment. I mean, there are other people in her life, and it would be crushing if they didn't accept me too. Her parents have already made it a point to say that they don't trust me (although I am thankful that they were kind enough to allow me to stay at their house for my trip), and I don't know if I will be able to build up their trust in me. At least her brother is reserving judgement for the time being though.

I really hope that he likes me too. I mean, he seems like a really nice guy, and I'm sure we'll get on well, but I always have this thought in the back of my mind that he hates me for taking his sister away from him, and that's the last thing I want him to think. Maybe all 3 of us can play some Mario Kart together and he'll grow to like me... maybe.

And then there's Alice's friends... they have been there for Alice to give her advice, and haven't really talked to me at all... Alice has passed on some comments I've made to them, but that's about it... and, well, to be honest, I think the things I said make me sound like an asshole, and I'm not convinced that me coming over and talking to them is going to make them think any different... I have a nasty habit of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time and I just really hope I don't end up doing that when I meet them.

Well... that was depressing... on a lighter note, I genuinely am looking forward to spending some time with the woman I love and just doing random things. Soooo... anyway, that's all that was on mah mind right now. I'll post more soon ;)

See ya 'round
- Dáithi

35 more days...

...until we are finally together. <3 I can't wait for July 10th to come! It's gonna be amazing when I see him at the airport. The first thing I'm gonna do is run and hug him. I may cry, as well. I wonder if I will be able to record our first meeting. It is gonna be something that only happens once.

Apparently, the Vancouver airport have a lot of stores and a food court. We're gonna explore the place, yes? Grab something to drink, too. Ah, I can't wait! *excited*

~Alice

YAYZ!

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