Of course, when the 31st came closer and closer, we get upset that he will be leaving. During our all-nighter on the 31st, I cried a lot. Just knowing that it will be at least a year before we can be together again is just so sad. No more hugging, kissing, feeling his face, smelling his smell, playing games together, waking up in the morning together (him waking me up), brushing our teeth, eating meals together, etc. We have to go back to the routine of us talking on Skype, texting (DMing) through Twitter, and not being together. It IS a long-distance relationship, after all. We agreed to be like this. Meeting up was a treat. Hopefully, we will be together permanently soon.
When I woke up (I slept when I got home from the airport), my brother comforted me saying that is it better to not have met him at all and be free from the pain or have met him and have this pain. Of course, I said that it is better to have met him and have this pain. Daithi has impacted my life so much, and I love him so much. How can I wish to not have met him, either in person or just online.
And yes, I didn't update everyday. How can I take time out of my schedule to update with Daithi with me. I just hope I don't forget these 3 weeks. I do have photos, receipts, and other souvenirs to remember these 3 weeks by.
I don't know when I will recover from my withdrawal of having Daithi with me at my house for 3 weeks, but I do hope I recover soon. I have things to do now like finding a job to save up money for a ticket to Ireland. :)
*sighs*
For my parents, they weren't too friendly with him when he was over. I wish they try to communicate with each other. Though, I don't want to push things, especially on Daithi's side. *sighs* Mom said to me today that it's like she lost a child and that it would have been better if he was Chinese. I can't believe she said that! That's so racist! She even told my brother to find a Chinese girlfriend. Grr. Though, there was something she said that kind of hurt me. She said that if Daithi's condition is going to affect the rest of this life, my life would be more complicated by it and that I should find someone else. Because of this condition, I would need to pay for the medicine and take care of him, on top of taking care of my life. I didn't really know how to reply to her. I just said that I love him. Even if life gets difficult, I will stay by his side.
However, just today, after Daithi injected himself, he got violently ill, muscles tensed... I was so worried and felt just useless since I was so far away from him. Thankfully, he's okay. He has family to take care of him. The thing is, he said that he would understand if I left him if it gets too unbearable. What can I say? I love him... Even if he is unable to walk or sick in the hospital, I will stay by his side, even if it's painful for me to say him like that. Wouldn't it be more painful for him? If I left him, that would be totally unbearably painful. When you're sick, you need someone's care and love to pull through, right?
I didn't tell Daithi any of this. I couldn't say he was in pain earlier and we are just overcoming the fact that we aren't together physically.
These next few days will be tough. Daithi is busy because he is in London. Plus, his 18th b-day is coming up. I guess I will have to be strong by myself. I do have my brother to comfort me, even if my parents don't agree with me having Daithi as my boyfriend.
Well, I got to go finish uploading the photos. Bye~
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