Getting Nervous

So, it's coming really close to the time that Alice and I will meet for the first time... and... to be honest I'm starting to worry a little. I'm worried that Alice won't look at me the same way as she does when we speak on webcam. I'm worried that she won't speak to me the same way she does every day on Skype. I'm worried that my strange antics will be less charming and more off-putting to her. But, at the end of the day I love her, and I guess all I can do is love her and be myself.

Even if she accepts me though, there are still a lot of other things that are troubling my mind at the moment. I mean, there are other people in her life, and it would be crushing if they didn't accept me too. Her parents have already made it a point to say that they don't trust me (although I am thankful that they were kind enough to allow me to stay at their house for my trip), and I don't know if I will be able to build up their trust in me. At least her brother is reserving judgement for the time being though.

I really hope that he likes me too. I mean, he seems like a really nice guy, and I'm sure we'll get on well, but I always have this thought in the back of my mind that he hates me for taking his sister away from him, and that's the last thing I want him to think. Maybe all 3 of us can play some Mario Kart together and he'll grow to like me... maybe.

And then there's Alice's friends... they have been there for Alice to give her advice, and haven't really talked to me at all... Alice has passed on some comments I've made to them, but that's about it... and, well, to be honest, I think the things I said make me sound like an asshole, and I'm not convinced that me coming over and talking to them is going to make them think any different... I have a nasty habit of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time and I just really hope I don't end up doing that when I meet them.

Well... that was depressing... on a lighter note, I genuinely am looking forward to spending some time with the woman I love and just doing random things. Soooo... anyway, that's all that was on mah mind right now. I'll post more soon ;)

See ya 'round
- Dáithi