23 more days

I can't believe that July 10th is this close now. I remembered when it was just 50, 100 even 365 days. I'm still really excited... and nervous. I want to start seriously planning the 3 weeks when we are together.

You know, I'm worried that I won't be able to act like myself when he's around. I may get so nervous that I can't even look at him. Even when I talk to him on webcam, it is embarrassing for me. I am a shy person, after all.

Lately, I've been waking up really late. My body just won't wake up early anymore even if I sleep earlier. I got to fix that before July. I need to be able to get to the airport before 11:15am, that is when his plane arrives. Huh... I should start getting ready for his arrival. Buy some things or clean up the house. Maybe make plans and call friends. But still... 23 days is still far away.

I really don't know what I'm doing this summer with my life. No work, no school. I feel so unaccomplished. I was suppose to learn to drive this summer, too, but I haven't looked at the manual, yet. Even LPing seems to be in a slump. I have no motivation to do anything, except watch videos and knitting. I should start learning how to knit a hat, you know, so I can make one for my boyfriend, but I need to get his measurements. So I'll get them when he comes over.

*sighs* What am I doing with my life, anyway?